my online journal! (wip)

first entry..!

learning (trying (and failing) to learn) html has ruined my life for the past few days not gonna lie.. i haven't even been reading like at all because all i'm ever thinking about anymore is neocities and html and even when i'm not actively coding (again, trying to) i'm always watching tutorials or looking at other people's sites and i'm sooo jealous.
i told like two of my friends that i'm doing this and one of them asked to see it but i don't think i'm going to give out any links or anything... i think it's obvious if you look at any of the pages that this site belongs to me if you know me (even the name which is based on a shinee song is a dead giveaway) so if they're so invested they can go html scavanging on their own... joking! i love my friends! but i do kind of want an online space that's just for me and where i can be 100% anonymous. i feel like i wouldn't be able to fully express myself if there were people i actually knew who would see my shit lol. there's a very special type of freedom that comes with being surrounded by solely strangers that i'm really craving right now. maybe it's also a gender thing (in a way) but it's too late to get into that rn!! and i should also go to sleep.